Racial Serious.

lilly allen, the fear

the kings of leon, sex on fire and charmer.

also, this.



p.s. being sick with a cold sucks a lot.

oh man oh man oh man, can you be decisive?

do you know what you think or feel? are you skilled enough to articulate it? are you brave enough to look at it?


or are you toriamarobot?

or are you toriamasociopath?

i think you're toriyoureahuman.


lol @ toriamarobot.

Surgery soon? Ultrasound first. Dumb, though.

I've rediscovered Clonazepam. Upping the dose.

Got a box from Robert in the mail today. It makes me happy.

Flying Lotus and Zero 7 and Aphex Twin, ok? ok!

p.s. the last post from a when i was originally keeping up this livejournal was on November 7th 2007. My first return post was on November 7, 2008. Hilarious.


p.p.s. I wonder if you read this.

rat died.

people are hypocrites always!

these two things make me dying.






like, you know. Status: dying.


but it's not super effective.

I haven't posted for a while. My first returning post should be meaningful, truthful, and great.

How about....

Rachael's List of Hot Old Guys.

ya there we go. good idea.

Everyone knows i prefer older men, but which do i really dream about? guys in their 40's and 50's. True story.

1. Anthony Bourdain



2. Craig Ferguson (yes, Georgia, yes.)



3. Kevin McKidd



4. [needs no naming/ goes without saying]



give me a combination of these men and i'll never ask for anything else in life, ever.














EVER.

i'm in ohio with derek for a gaming tournament. I'm running out of video games and battery life. Also, cocks.

My title was supposed to be a spin off of "chicks dont know about my ______." etc etc, but it just ended up being a correct statement and i failed.

I am the oracle.
I am the old woman.
Be good to me,
and I will take care of you always.











Also, I've decided to go to Reactor. maybe.

I saw Molly today as planned, and of course advised her on love and life and things according.


Blood today.

I should be writing a paper about deep ocean dwelling creatures... but I know I'll probably
put it off until I'm close to passing out.

I wish I had a black grandmother.
... well, i did, i guess i should say "I wish I had a living black grandmother."



I really do so love angler fish.

Wade and I went to go see 30 Days of Night.
It's hard to over state my disappointment with the film,
but Wade and I had a lovely evening in which I advised him about eyes,
how to feral scream, and fed him dinner. He helped me find my car,
gave me interesting things to think about, and all in all it was a lovely evening
ending in screaming and A.I. voices, as our evenings often do.
That statement means everything and nothing that you think it means.

I hope to see Molly tomorrow, Alen on Saturday, and Erica sometime in between.
While I'm juggling those, I've yet to write both an essay and a report,
both coincidentally due on Thursday.

It's time for muscle relaxants and bed now. All the better to prepare myself
for the day of rushing ahead of me.

p.s.  I miss 4ch.... i mean ebaumsworld.

my rat, in a cup, for your viewing pleasure.


also:

drakenvi: oh
drakenvi: hey
drakenvi: are we going to hang out tomorrow/
x1049: yes?
drakenvi: because I'd still like to see 30 days of night, and it's entirely possible that I'm just going to get a shit job for the winter so I can have money, which will result in me paying you and jarad back as well as my getting a guitar
drakenvi: meaning
drakenvi: I will eventually pay you back if we go see the movie
x1049: lol, all right
drakenvi: my tally is at 67, I'll just round it to 70, kay?
x1049: uh, ok
x1049: :shrug:
drakenvi: pssht
drakenvi: whatever
drakenvi: fine
drakenvi: I'm cleaning
drakenvi: have a fun
drakenvi is away at 9:55:59 PM.


remember that folks, it's his tally.

My intention for creating a livejournal is really to document the days for future reference, and maybe post an opinion or two from time to time.


Today i saw Wade for about an hour and then left when Jarad arrived. I really would have liked to spend some time with Wade, but Jarad was not being pleasant and so I left them to it. No need to stay in an environment that isn't pleasant or productive.

Last night I began to compose a rough draft for the requirements of a significant other. Think of it as a job description. They really would learn all of these things as our relationship went along, but actually verbalizing my expectations and intentions really just saves us all time.

This is what I have so far:

The Requirements

Please note that I reserve the right to edit this list of expectations at any given time. None of these are set in stone and are all available for discussion, thorough explanation, or movement for revision. If you find that some or all of these expectations are unfair, unattainable, or do not apply to you, get out now.

All of these expectations not only apply to you, but you can expect them to be applied to me as well. I can assure you with whole and complete honesty that I will do my very best to stay fair and do what is truly best for the relationship when entered into.

1. Important Things.

1. I am your equal. No less, no more. I expect our relationship to be a partnership. I will not tolerate “carrying the load alone,” and do not expect you to do the same either. I expect to work together and strengthen one another. When one is weak, the other will compensate, and vice versa. This should never and will never change for any reason throughout our relationship. It is the core and key to success with me, and I will not accept anything less. Please note that the system of equality does not operate on the basis of debt or a “tally system.” A score will not be kept, and if you feel as though I am in debt to you for whatever reason, monetary or otherwise, CAREFULLY consider what your TRUE intentions and goals would be in bringing your complaint to me, and then do so. Be prepared with reasonable argument.

2. You must be able to hold an intelligent conversation. See me for further explanation or definition of what constitutes as intelligent. Please also note that if you so choose to question me on my definition of intelligent it may or may not “knock off a few of your points,” whether the root of your asking to be “humorous” or if you actually don’t know (or are unable even fathom) what I could mean.

3. You must be able to know when I am being serious or when I am being humorous, and not deviate from these “tones” in their applicable conversations or instances. A generous one-month adjustment period is granted to you for learning purposes, I suggest you use it wisely.

4. Do not whine. You are allowed to voice complaints in a structured and well thought out manner, but only when you have hopes of working together to alleviate whatever source problems they have stemmed from. I expect all complaints to be voiced in a quiet, private environment, with proper signaling as to what your intentions are and what you hope to gain through voicing your complaint.

5. I expect you to be blunt. In order to save time and to be most productive, say it now. Be as concise, and yet as thorough as possible. If you have a problem or suggestion, voice it, and I will deliver on to you my own thoughts and arguments, and a mutual conclusion will be met. Please note that the same rule applies, and you can expect me to be blunt with you as well. To adopt this method, we must each push aside whatever “hurt feelings” we have or might have. If emotional stress or strains that can not be healthily pushed aside arise, voice them, as you can expect me to do.

6. Never lie. Always give me the truth in it’s entirety, no matter how detrimental or how hurt you think it will make me. I can assure you with great confidence that the benefit will be yours and mine.

 

2. Not so important things, yet still important enough to mention.

I shall continue with this tonight and until it is complete although i don't feel it will ever be "complete."

 

Oh, ya. Alen visited yesterday. It was lovely.

 

I want someone to to go with me to see 30 Days of Night.  Real bad.

also, i want an


so i can play

 

It would appear as though i have gotten a livejournal.


hooray.